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13 August 2005 @ 02:57 pm
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Cross out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold what best applies to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut


JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

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inside.my.heart.is.breaking
08 January 2005 @ 01:48 am
Yayyy for Marissa being 21!!!




shadeball

drinking wine out of plastic hawaiian cups. classy.

sorta drunk

happy happy

would you like some more wine, dahhhling?

another glass? ok.

typical expressions.


pillowman!

clearly bombed out of our minds

we're all possessed.
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
and they're like it's better than yours!!


Milkshake by Kelis





"My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard
And they're like, it's better than yours
Damn right it's better than yours
I could teach you
But I have to charge"

You can work it! And you started a new trend or two in 2004!







Your Boobies' Names Are: Milk Shakes




Coincidence? I think not. My MILK SHAKES bring all the boys to the yard! ahhhhhahaha
 
 
Current Mood: naughty
Current Music: milkshake - kelis
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
19 November 2004 @ 03:17 pm
**In bold are the things I HAVE done:

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity.
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Called in sick when you were not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run

43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer

49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers.
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it

81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have

94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on.
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check

124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair blue
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game paper-based, not computerized
200: Been arrested
 
 
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: rainy days - mary j. & ja rule
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
12 October 2004 @ 02:22 am
...guess so.


 
 
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: a case of you - tori amos
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
29 August 2004 @ 04:58 pm
DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Moderate
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --




apparently i have extreme ocd. interesting. i'm also in a wicked bad mood right now for no apparent reason. excellent. i'm gonna go nap it off.
 
 
Current Mood: grumpy
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
28 August 2004 @ 02:24 am
All I have to say is I wanted to spidey jizz strangle that fuckin cop who had the nerve to even TALK to me! Go ahead and give me that $100 ticket, but just know that you will die a slow, painful death by a quick shot of spidey jizz that, with my aim, will surely envelop your neck. ok, it's 1 am, i've been up since 8 and i just took 3 benadryl. i'm a little delirious. beth and sarah are the only two people that will ever understand spidey jizz strangle. we're an elite crowd. ; )
 
 
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: hold on - wilson phillips (don't even laugh, i love this song)
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
26 August 2004 @ 01:20 am
...my faith in television has been restored by RAVEN. I fuckin love that girl.
 
 
Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: my 1st song - jay-z
 
 
inside.my.heart.is.breaking
Seven Deadly Sins

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? Ok I’m trying really hard to think of the last person that made me angry. probably my sister and brother when they wake me up early in the morning for rides to soccer and work. that makes me very angry.
2. What is your weapon of choice? words.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? yup
4. How about of the same sex? if it was for a good reason, I'd definitely get in a cat fight.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? I have no idea. my mom maybe. unless someone out there secretly hates me…ahhaha.
6. What is your pet peeve? well the future editor in me despises spelling mistakes. I try not to point them out, but definately, wierd, and alot are not words. Let’s try definitely, weird, and a lot.
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I hold grudges.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? I used to watch the news all the time, and I watch it about once a week now. maybe once school starts I’ll get back into it.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? Well, after working at CVS until 7 a.m., I could easily sleep ‘til at least 7 p.m. Once I slept all the way through to 10 p.m.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: my soulmate Joe from NJ and Penza.
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I blew someone off today to take a nap. but I was really tired.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? I watch the Sleep Number bed one every time it’s on. I want one of those beds soooo bad.
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? a few weeks ago, haha.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? zero. I hopped right out of bed.

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Starbuck caramel frappuccinos.
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? white. only white.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? enough to completely black out, somehow get my pajamas on, and sleep on a fork in a bed that was smothered with my chocolate birthday cake. good times and a good amount of alcohol.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? does south beach count? I tried that. key word: tried.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yeah
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? salty and spicy
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? no.
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? tons.
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? no one. ok that’s a lie.
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? it’s kinda hard to stare at someone’s crotch when you’re having a conversation with them. so I guess not. but from afar, definitely.
4. Have you "done it"? Done what? ; )
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? eyes, hands, and shoulders/upper back. yum.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? not recently.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? tres.
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? target.
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy some cars, a house, pay off school, and invest
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? as long as I still had time to do the things I love.
6. Have you ever stolen anything? every naturalistics lip gloss flavor from cvs with jayne grimley in 7th grade.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? according to itunes 3854. that’s crazy.

PRIDE
1. What's one thing have you done that you're most proud of? oh jesus, I dunno. I’m a genius. I’m proud of that. haha. I’m modest too.
2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of? I'd say that I’ve turned out semi-normal considering the circumstances.
3. What's one thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Love, happiness, and success. ok, that's three, but I think they all lead to each other.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yes.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes. I kill shit in spelling bees, ain't no denying that. haha.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? only the SATs. (kidding)
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? earned some moolah.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? I love kelly’s rings. and her bright neon yellow t-shirt.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Jill would make me a princessy room, so Jill.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Cameron diaz. I just want JT.
4. Have you ever been cheated on? kinda.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? I want boobs!
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? eternal optimism.
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? not really.
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Sloth, because it reminds me of Kelly. Not because she is sloth-like in the sinful way. she's like the animal. and I love it!

Seven Heavenly Virtues

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? christianity
2. What religion were you raised as? Christian. Episcopalian if we’re talking specifics.
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? human.
4. Do you believe in magic? Of course. Because I’m also a witch. southwick, what?!
5. What was the last promise you broke? I promised myself I’d go to bed at midnight, if that counts. and it’s now 3:30 am. shockface.
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? uhh no.
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? hmmm, everyone has flaws, but who’s to say they’re still not perfect. I can’t decide.

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? nope. i'm still waiting on that belle snowglobe
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? happiness
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? yup, and my expectations are rarely met. it’s a big bummer.
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? If so, how close did you come to winning? yup and nowhere near winning.
6. Do you gamble? If so, what game or activity? nope.

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? human, animal, and environmental rights. haha that’s pretty much everything. I support equality.
2. What causes have you given money or time to? PETA & WWF. the world wildlife fund, not the world wrestling federation.
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? once in 8th grade, me, jill, and jill davis cooked a meal for the welcome house. that's about it. and that’s horrible, I’m a waste of a citizen.
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel-inherent worldwide charity group? yes. maybe not the peace corps, but amnesty or something else definitely.
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? change sometimes. I always give money to the people ringing the bells at Christmas time. the salvation army I guess. they always get me.
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? yup, give a penny, take a penny.
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? hmm maybe when marissa moved in with me and Kelly for a while. it was definitely cozy, but we survived :)

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? you all know my biggest fear: RACCOONS!!!
2. What did you do today that was really brave? absolutely nothing.
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why? spidey.
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? to an extent. I guess it depends who the person was and how much danger I would be in.
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? soooome cccccourage.
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? If so, when? If not, how do you avoid it? I don’t think I’ve ever been on stage.
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? a little of both.

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? Were you chosen? not yet.
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? I’m a lover not a fighter.
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? yup. the punishment fits the crime sometimes.
4. Which should be guaranteed legal? I don’t get this question. Am I stupid?
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? nope.
6. What was your favorite media circus trial? definitely oj simpson. and I follow the Peterson trial everyday, I’m hooked.
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? plenty.

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? talking on AIM.
2. Do you collect anything? I’m pretty sure I’ve collected every nail polish color. I knew it was bad when beth came over and she was most excited to pick a color and paint her nails. I guess the pleasure of my company just doesn’t cut it anymore.
3. Are you addicted to anything? the internet, brownie bites, iced tea, Gatorade, and music.
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? nope.
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? credit or debit. although lately I’ve been using cash and I feel like ms. moneybags.
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do: work at cvs. where did my summer go? it was just completely unnecessary.
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? I have ocd.

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? oprah. ha!
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? not that I can remember.
3. Do you take advice when it's given? I listen to advice and sometimes take it.
4. What area are you wisest in? life.
5. Do you drive defensively? hell no. I rule the road.
7. What did you learn today? Justin timberlake is a god.
8. And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue? hope
 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: cigarettes & chocolate milk - rufus wainwright